1. Touch her waist.

1. 搂她的腰

2. Actually talk to her.

2. 跟她真正的谈话

3. Share secrets with her.

3. 和她分享秘密

4. Give her 1 of your sweatshirts

4. 给她一件你的衬衫

5. Kiss her slowly.

5. 温柔地亲她

6. Hug her.

6.和她拥抱

7. Hold her.

7. 抱住她

8. Laugh with her.

8. 和她一起笑

9. Invite her everywhere.

9. 带她去你去的地方

10. Hangout with her and your friends together.

10. 和朋友们出去玩的时候也带上她

11. Smile with her.

11. 和她一起微笑

12. Take pictures with her.

12. 和她合影

13. Pull her onto your lap.

13. 让她坐在你的膝上

14. When she says she loves you more, deny it. Fight back.

14. 当她说她爱你多一些的时候，告诉她你爱她更多

15. When her friends say i love her more than you, deny it. fight back and hug her tight so she can't get to her friends. it makes her feel loved.

15. 当她的朋友说ta爱她比你多的时候，要说不对，然后紧紧抱住她，使她不能到朋友身边。这让她感到被爱

16. Always hug her and say hi whenever you see her.

16. 见到她的时候，总是拥抱她，对她说Hi

17. Kiss her unexpectedly.

17. 在意料不到的时候亲她

18. Hug her from behind around the waist.

18. 从后面抱住她的腰

19. Tell her she's beautiful.

19. 告诉她她很漂亮

20. Tell her the way you feel about her.

20. 实话实说告诉她你对她的感觉

21. Open doors for her, walk her to her car (if any)- it makes her feel protected, plus it never hurts to act like a gentleman.

21. 为她开门，陪她走到车边（如果有的话）——这让她有安全感，再说了，有点绅士风度也不收你钱

22. Tell her she's your everything - ONLY if you mean it.

22. 当你真的这么想的时候，告诉她她是你的一切

23. If it seems like there is something wrong, ask her- if she denies something being wrong, it means SHE DOESN'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT- so just hug her.

23. 如果她看起来有心事，问问她——如果她说没有，说明她不想谈！！！！——所以给她一个拥抱

24. Make her feel loved.

24. 让她感到你是爱她的

25. Kiss her in front of OTHER girls you know

25. 在你的异性朋友面前亲她

26. DON'T lie to her

26. 不要对她说谎！！

27. DON'T cheat on her!

27. 别脚踏两只船！！

28. Take her ANYWHERE she wants

28. 带她去任何她想去的地方

29. Text messege or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at work {or school}, and how much you MISS her.

29. 每天早上给她发短信或是打电话，告诉她今天要好好的，还要告诉她你有多想她

30. Be there for her when ever she needs you, & even when she doesn't need you, just be there so she'll know that she can ALWAYS count on you.

30. 无论什么时候，都陪伴在她身边，让她知道她永远可以依赖你

31. Hold her close when she's cold so she can hold YOU too.

31. 很冷的时候抱紧她，因为这样她也可以抱紧你

32. When you are ALONE hold her close and kiss her.

32. 独处的时候，抱紧她，吻她

33. Kiss her on the CHEEK: (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss her).

33. 吻她的脸颊（告诉她你想吻她了）

34. While in the movies, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her LIGHTLY.

34. 看电影的时候，把她搂在怀里，这样她就会自己把头放在你的肩膀上，然后请你微微抬起她的脸颊，然后轻轻地亲她

35. Dont EVER tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you're mad. If shes upset, comfort her.

35. 永远不要让她离开，不管你是开玩笑还是真的生气了。如果她不高兴了，请安慰她

36. When people DISS her, stand up for her.

36. (不知道Diss什么意思！所以我就胡扯了啊)当人们开她玩笑，嘲笑她的时候，要替她说话

37. Look deep into her EYES and tell her you love her.

37. 凝望她的眼睛，告诉她你爱她

38. Lay down under the STARS and put her head on your chest so you can cuddle.

38. 在星空下躺下，让她把头放在你的胸口，这样你就可以搂住她

39. When walking next to each other grab her HAND.

39. 和她说话的时候，握住她的手

40. When you hug her HOLD her in your arms as long as possible

40. 和她拥抱的时候，抱的越长越好

41. Call or text her EVERY night to wish her SWEET DREAMS

41. 每晚都要给她打电话或发短信祝好梦

42. COMFORT her when she cries and wipe away her tears.

42. 当她哭泣的时候，安慰她，为她拭去泪水

43. Take her for LONG walks at night.

43. 晚上和她出去散步，走很长时间

44. ALWAYS remind her how much you love her.

44. 总是提醒她你有多爱她

45. Sit on top of her and tell her how much u love her and then bend down to her face and kiss her while sitting on her.

45. 坐在她后面一排，告诉她你多爱她，然后弯下腰吻她

46. Rub her back--feels good

46. 用手摩挲她的后背——感觉很好

47. Give her your coat if she's cold--thats always cute

47. 她冷的时候给她你的外衣——总是感觉很贴心

48. Write letters on her back with your finger--feels good ;D

48. 用手指在她后背写字——感觉很好

49. Let her sit on your lap

49. 让她坐在你膝上

50. DON'T poke her hard...but if you want to mess around just do it lightly.

50. 别戳得太狠...但是想和她开玩笑的时候就轻轻地戳她：D

51. HOLD her HAND in PUBLIC.

51. 在公共场合下握住她的手

52. Even if she looks BAD one day tell her she's BEAUTIFUL

52. 告诉她她有多美——即使有一天她看起来不咋的

53. Keep conversations flowing...talk about anything usually they just go along with it.

53. 让你们的对话一直延续下去...她会和你一直说下去

54. If their hair is in their face move it out of her face and then kiss her passionatley and gently.

54. 如果她的头发遮住了脸，拂开头发然后温柔又不失激情地吻她

55. Surprisingly sneek up on her and hug her from behind--loves it.

55. 悄悄到她身边然后从背后抱住她——最爱

56. Kiss her in the rain.

56. 在雨中吻她

57. Pick her up like in The Notebook and kiss her.

57. 把她像电影the Notebook里那样抱起来然后吻她

58. Slow dance with no music

58. 和她慢慢地跳舞...不用音乐

59. Don't ignore her or be nerveous around her--everything is going to be okay.

59. 不要忽视她，不要紧张，在她身边，一切都会好起来

60. Love her, kiss her, hold her, and you'll be good to go.

60. 爱她，吻她，抱住她，这样一切都会解决

我不是處女，你还会爱我嗎? (a touching story...)

在一個偏僻的山村里~有這樣一對姐妹~倆姐妹從小感情就很好~在她姐姐考大學那年~由於學習緊張~所以晚上還要去上課~那晚~她對妹妹說~我去上課走了~ 妹妹說~早點回來~路上小心~時間一分一秒的過去~妹妹估麼著姐姐應該回來了~怎麼還不回來~妹妹是左盼右盼`就是等不到姐姐的歸來~她等的有點不耐煩了~ 就把她父母叫起來`

他們一家人就去找姐姐~找變了村的所有地方~可是~就是找不到姐姐的踪影~一家人~神情有的慌亂~擔心~焦急~最後在村邊的一個小樹林裡找到了姐姐~她~當時昏睡在那~父母看到~十分驚訝~因為姐姐~衣衫不整~的躺在那~一動不動~妹妹當時就昏過去了~

第二天`當妹妹醒來的時候~她知道~姐姐昨天~昨天被人強奸了~妹妹當時就沉沒了好久~一直不吭`父母對妹妹說；這件事~不要說出去~因為~這關係到你姐姐的將來~和以後的人生~妹妹無語~~時間一天一天的過去~姐姐跟妹妹都張大了~那件事`也只有~他們一家人知道~那也是他們家的陰影~父母一直琢磨著~ 給姐姐找個對象~

終於有一天~姐姐找到了一個合適的對象~姐姐跟她對象~接觸的十分愉快~那時候的姐姐似乎忘了~自己已經不是處女~自己好像是公主一樣~有王子的陪伴~是天下最`最`最幸福的女孩~那男孩也十分的喜歡姐姐~對她是百依百順~妹妹看了也十分的欣慰~心裡默默的祈禱~希望姐姐是找到了自己的好歸宿~讓姐姐的生活永遠像現在一樣~像生活在天堂裡的天使一樣~永遠過著~幸福~安康~平定的生活~妹妹是這樣祈禱的~

可是~事事都不進人意~就在姐姐跟姐夫就要訂婚的時候~姐姐告訴了~她不是處女~在小時候讓別人強奸了~姐夫~愕然了~過了一會~等那男孩反應過來的時候~ 對女孩說；我不能接受你~我們~我們還是散了把~就算我能接受你~我家人也~也未必能接受這個殘酷的事實~女孩什麼也沒說~就走了~回到家~妹妹看到姐姐心情低落~就問什麼事~姐姐說沒事`睡吧~你明天還要去上學呢~妹妹就沒在問~

第二天~當妹妹放學回到家的時候~看到父母在哭泣~回到屋~看到姐姐穿著潔白的婚紗躺在床上~當時妹妹就傻了~桌上放著安眠藥的空瓶子~當時妹妹~眼淚就落了下來~大聲的說~你為什麼這麼傻`為什麼拋下我~哭的泣不成聲~昏到了三四次~醒了在哭~父母也跟著在那哭泣~父親大聲喊到~天啊~我上輩子到是做了什麼孽啊~你醬這樣對我~還有我的家人`

他們一家人把姐姐的喪事給辦了以後~發現姐姐有一封信~是留給妹妹的~信中是這樣說的~妹妹；原諒姐姐~因為我實在是承受不住現實對我的打擊~我把我不是處女的事給你姐夫說了~他說；他不能接受這樣的事實~他家人也不能~因為他們不能接受我這個不是黃花大閨女的事實~妹妹~原諒我`以後你要好好的照顧父母~ 不要忘了`你對我的承諾~我只有穿上我著潔白的婚紗~帶著有污點身子`去天堂找一個能夠接受我的人`原諒我這個傻姐姐~~~~~~ ！ ！

看了那封信~妹妹當時就恨下心來`完成她對姐姐承諾~那就是上大學~真是光陰似濺~日見如梭`妹妹~果然完成了她對姐姐的承諾~靠上了大學~在靠上大學的那天~她去姐姐的墳上~哭泣的對姐姐說~姐；我完成了對你的承諾了~我要用我的方式`去找男朋友~你要是在天有靈`你看著妹妹我~我是怎麼樣用你的方式去找男朋友的~在大學生活裡~妹妹她~~~真是女大十八變~她邊成了一個亭亭玉利~非常標誌的女孩~往往這樣的女孩~是不乏男孩追的~因為那都是男孩心中的理想對象~

每當他跟一個男孩交往一段時間以後~就對男孩說~我不是處女~你要我嗎~而~每個男孩的地一反應都是~驚訝~愕然~的呆在那裡~女孩每當看到這樣的情況就~頭也不會的走了~大學畢業的那年~她應徵到了一個網絡公司~在那裡面也不缺乏男孩追~因為~美女嘛~誰不愛~ 可是女孩一說；她不是處女的時候~男孩的第一表現~跟在學校的時候那些人的表現一樣~

那天~~公司來了個~高大~帥氣~有陽光氣味的男孩子~他在公司呆了沒多長時間就升職了~男孩在公司年輕有偉~又高大帥氣~有很多女孩對他頻頻釋愛~可是這男孩發現~就一女孩對他卻無動於衷~後來~他發現這女孩不緊有氣質`而且還衝滿了女人味~~！為什麼就沒人追呢~所以~他就對女孩展開了追求的公式~女孩看到這麼一帥哥追求自己~而且這個帥哥是公司上下的女孩心目中的王子~現在開始追求自己~我~我`我為什麼要拒絕呢~她跟那男孩交往了一段時間~那段時間她過的也十分的快樂~幾乎都忘了~自己要對男孩說的那句話~

後來~有一天~他跟那男孩在一起~女孩對那男的說；對不起~我隱瞞了你這麼長時間~我現在要對你說；~我不是處女~你要我嗎？那男的跟以前的那些男孩的反應一樣~驚訝~愕然~的呆在那裡~女孩就像跟往常一樣頭也不回的走了回到宿舍~女孩第一次為男孩流下眼淚~因為她真的是很愛那個男的`可是~可是`他怎麼跟以前的那些男的一樣呢~他可是在城市裡張大的~思想怎麼還~女孩一直在思考~眼淚一直在流~哭著哭著就睡著了~

事情過了一天兩天~他們在公司見面~就跟是陌生人一樣~在一個下著大雨的夜晚~女孩在咖啡館裡喝著咖啡~看著窗外的雨景~心情有點承重~想起了他~不一會~他看到了一個熟悉的身影~是他~就是他~他拿著鮮花~在大雨裡淋著~ 他大聲說；柔~我愛你~我愛的不是你的身體~而是你那潔白`而又純潔的靈魂~我考慮了這麼多天~就是在想~我怎麼能跟那些俗人一樣呢~我是生活在一個有文化的家庭裡~我的思想不能跟他們一樣~我不能束縛在傳統的思想社會裡~我應該破戒封建的思想~我~我~我知道錯了~原諒我~我……我愛你……嫁給我吧…… 女孩在也抵制不住自己的情緒~跑了出去~投在男孩的懷抱~

兩人相擁在雨裡~那時好像時間停頓在那一刻~彼此的安撫自己~那時候女孩對姐姐說；姐~我找到了自己的真愛~謝謝你~

就在他們兩人洞房的那夜~那男孩驚奇的發現~這女孩還是處女~就問為什麼~女孩完完全全的告訴了男孩~這男孩驚訝的說~你~你~你的做法是對的~我能娶你做老婆~真是積了八輩子的德~女孩欣慰的躺在男孩的懷裡傻笑著~她笑的是那麼的甜~那麼的幸福~~~~~！ ！ ！

my words...my life..my story..
will update it soon~

No title to write this time..
Dunno what kind of title is suitable to describe what I'm trying to write now..

U came into my life after I just had my sweet freedom..
I never could imagine myself to be so close to U
even with so much drama going on with my life..
U are just yourself...
relax...chill...happy go lucky etc...
In the end, something miracle happen..
I was quite happy etc...
but during the progress of knowing each other..
there is a lot of obstacle as well..
that make us know each other better...
but with some scratches as well..

I could still remember that U say that the 1st stage was
always sweet...curious...so the smsing...phone calling would non-stop..
but soon after the 1st stage of knowing each other have pass..
U got bored of it..
I remember 1 of our conversation that U r kinda bored of it...
I wonder u either say that u r bored of me because I keep on disappointing U...
or because my attitude is easier to grab?
while not like U..
no matter how straight forward U are..
U are still like a puzzle to me..
I still can't figure U out from my mind..
U r really not that kind of person who I could figure out..

Since U knew 1 of my dirty little secret..
I know that it is either gonna make it or break it..
at 1st U accept it..
the last conversation we had...
U make it very clear to me a lot of things..
I dunno whether I feel disappointed or not..
but, the more I think about it..
the more I feel guilty about it..
U r really a rare kind..
I couldn't ask for more..
yet.. I feel like I don't deserve U..

I'm having inner conflict like I always had..
I dunno what is running through my mind besides exam..
I wonder do U even remember those words U said to me...
but I guess..
it doesn't matter now..
because everything seems impossible now..

busy month

It's been awhile I've touch my blog..
I know I've been busy preparing the 'WAR'
and also going through exams like I've been going through for
UPSR, PMR, SPM..and now the latest STPM...
its really damn different from any of those public exam I've taken before..
this time..exams like shit..
freaking harder than trial..
I thought trial is easier..
but real stpm..cannot be spot nor what..
its just unpredictable..
lolx~

I know..I know..
my result sucks...
because I've never really work hard in my studies before..
is it because I'm lazy?
maybe..maybe I don't really have the interest in studying academic though..
haha XD

neway...
2more papers to goooooooooo.........
with the gap so long..
the waiting is killing me...
argh!!!!!!!!
I can't wait for my sweet freedom..
yeah!!!
holiday!
wait for me!
I've made a list what I would love to do though..
haha XD

my troublesome confession

I never been this harsh before...
on someone who have been together with me for the last 3years...
I remember before leaving U..
all those promises I've made with u..
yet, I just throw it out..out from the window..
Now, I feel like I've become a devil instead..
no matter how hard U try to beg me..
woo me..
or even threaten me..
I don't react as much like I used too..
I felt like my feelings towards this kind of thing have make me gone numb...

It wasn't because a 3rd party came in my life that make me like this..
May be I decided to change everything drastically..
Just the sake of myself..
U never really know how many things I've done behind Ur back..
If only U knew..
I guess, u will just hate me for the rest of Ur life..
Because I remember 1 word u say that
'u will get everything what U've done to me..'
Of course..even Raja yoga says that karma will be like that..
I realize..yet..
I allow my devilish side of me to take over...
make me cold to you...
make me distance away myself from U..

say what U like..
all those cruel moments I had gave U~
there is just 1sole reason behind it..
I just want U to forget about us!
there is nothing I could do to turn back the clock anymore...
I don't really want to be the old me anymore..
I want to change!
I need to change!
For all the other reason..
U will never understand...

I only promise u that
if I really found a new guy in my life...
I would really2...
appreciated him...
love him..
will never do things behind his back..
won't keep everything in my heart..
be more honest with him..
I won't care what he do..
I just want a simple relationship..
etc...

that's the only promise for now..

what we do when trial is going on~

Sorry for the very freaking slow update..
I didn't really have much time to even update so many events that
have been going on such as 'before and after Hari Raya'
and the list goes on and on...
Even though we are having the longest 3 weeks of our life's...
Yet, we still had a little of our fun ya see...
Some of us went a little crazy doing things in the class
when we were waiting for the next paper
that make us feel like we were waiting for our death penalty..
haha XD

just to shift our focus..
we did a lot of things beside studying and reading like hell in class..

example :

doing nerd poses..

before hair cut

after hair cut

 Roqiah a.k.a  my malay twin brought some mushroom soup and belanja us makan..
1 of the best...

two types of mushroon soup (1 of it is for me!)

snatching the bread..

scooping in people!!

eating jagung plak...

let's start working people!

(after being full with a boost of energy~)

When weekend is here..
A few of us
(almost 90% of my classmate, me,yanjo,yu xiu and angie)
went to this seminar PA thing that was held in Inspin near my Taman..
so Basically, it is all bout PA paper like how to answer..blah3...
but I didn't really like the speaker though...
at least the bahan he gave is quite worth it la...

Inside the hall

the speaker face & his watever crap stuff

ku,hanis n tikah S

Tikah f, roqiah n Me...

yu xiu and angie listening..

cikgu din(kelantan) teaching us~


Besides that..
if U have been feeling unlucky or so on..
and U wish to check how ur fortune goes?
here another example of my close friend a.k.a Yanjo
brought her set of tarot cards to school for us to find out the meaning behind
for those things that keep on happening to us~

kira-kira her 'luck'~


Even the last paper on Thrusday also...
my classmate could bring some keropok from their house
and share it among themselves to release tension etc...

other people busy studying

this group sibuk makan...

roqiah& nurul hanis

ku & tikah s

me studying on my own

so this is how crazy the whole month have been...

-the end-