A day at the driving school~

Hmm...
It doesn't sound as interesting that I could tell you though...
Not much of my friends could tell me about it either...
Because not even half of them got their licence yet...
Even so,they will just say this bloody word...

"When you get there,you know what I meant!!!"

And really,
now I know why...
OH MY GOD!
It was bloody hell boring...
okay,this how it happens..

I was almost late till the ejen have to call me twice to remind me...
goes on that I did not realise that ILMU BARU have this freaky big compound where people learn and take exams from there...
It was cool at 1st though...
then after register the hadiran for the 5hour kursus thing,
They called name by name for the 1st colour blind test (if not mistaken)
so just continue doing the test like 10 mins?
then went back to my seat and just sat there for nearly an hour and a half....
ok...
some guy fail...
so,start the kursus crap thing...

But I still wonder why untill now,
these days,
no matter where I go...
It was like...
I will always be with these group of people...
unfortunately...
they are not the same gender like me...
even the work place I am working now...
Are just guys...
even the place I always go..
like the sk8 park = malay guys
the kursus crap thing I sat with = malay guys
work place to check hp and also upgrade stuff = chinese + malay guys
walao!
WTF?
it's like weird man!
I am constantly hanging out with guys only...
kinda scary though...
haiz~
haha XD
but its also cool in 1 way that
I keep hanging out with gurls constanly at school,
so it should be the time for me to hang out with the opposite sex...
haha ;P

Life in da house!

As usual... my dearly mother will go to India every year or twice a year...
Which is for the biggest event that is going on there where we get to meet somebody special and also a lot of activities are being held there
starting from the last three months...
which is super cool...
haha XD
too bad,I am not pure enough to go there yet...
so,I have to be patient then...
lolx~
I almost forgot the day she was leaving until like when my sis walk in the room around 7 am (she seldom wake up early when she is home)
Okay lo...
Tried to sleep back..
Dad interrupt me again ask me to get my lazy ass up to go to the airport..
haiz~
so,just take my time...
then off we go!
She left to India yesterday (afternoon)
her journey schedule was like...
morning from A.S to K.L then from there afternoon flight to INDIA~

Me and her (before she left)
I look retarded though..haha XD












Well,back to the house...
gotta get ready for work (as usual)
Surprising that my dad was trying to do the laundry and asking a lot of crap like

"how much of liquid you need to put in the washing machine?"

It was kinda weird for my old man to ask that...
haha XD
then again...
I have to be the mother of the house though...
that I do a lot of stuff when my mum is not around...
1 way of training me up to be independent though..
haiz~
lolx~

and my room still looks like a pig stable...
lazy and dunno which part I have to start cleaning...
lolx~
I am retarded and lame right?
haha XD

Do 2nd chance exist?

Until now...
I am still wondering do 2nd chance does exist in this world?
No matter what form on it,
It is still a mystery to me...
Yeah,some people only get what they want after the 2nd chance is being given...
but how bout some stuff like relationship etc?
Does that count too?

But it's not like it works also right?
Once you start all the negative things,
people won't trust you anymore...
Don't even dare to give you the trust they have give you cause they are afraid to be hurt again and again by the person they put high hope on...
I have been through this so many times that
sometimes it feels numb to me even though it should hurt your pride...
hurt your heart...hurt your feelings towards the person that you love and trust...
But 1 thing true is that....

"Trust yourself and god is always the best medicine to cure your broken heart.."

Even I was being betrayed by people that I trust so many times,
Even I was hurt by my love ones over and over again,
Even I was being emotionally bullied by those people who are just some filthy rich brats who doesn't understand the meaning of limits!

I never complain...
WHY?
Life is a drama,
There is nothing to be surprise what is going on right now in this life...
Now,
Everything seems to fall into pieces...
The big jig-saw puzzle that were once missing...
are now starting to fall into place...
Now for my understanding towards life...
Seems become easier now...
I start to put my position into other people shoes now...
Tried to imagine what will happen or what will I do if this happen to me?
Start to be grateful with life~

We should appriciated every moment in our life!
not let it wasted over some sad part in it right?
Life is not to be wasted!
but a journey to find yourselves~
not a destination for you to stop!!
agree?

new hair new life!

haha XD I know the title does sound a lil lame though..
but really want you know..
it's like you gave yourself a make over and it does work perfectly you see...
hehe ;P

okay2...
at first dye my hair nia..
but later when I went to Hatyai-Thailand (just came back yesterday night)
well,the highlight there is kinda cheap...
so went and do it...
this is during the process...











and after process...










so like okay nia la...
but got 1 string of hair colour that could be my trademark from now..
haha XD

1st day of work..

Actually is the 2nd day of work (if kira today)
but never mind la...
it doesn't really matter cause is still the same to me...
I did not expect myself to work in such a weird enviroment where all chinese
(cina beng summore)
plus meet with a lot of people who has such a shit sense of humor...
weird ei?
haha XD
but 1 thing,this is really an adult world right?
lolx~
working when form 1 is way different when you start to work at the age of 17??
lolx~
too much of responsibility to do...
a bit of head ache but I can still manage my stuff...

what is my work you were asking ei?
Me working at teleforce-A company which like a gudang/pemborong mobile phone center at Alor star...
I am working 1 part of the technician where I checked the mobile phone to see any missing stuff to upgrade etc...
Putting some shit easy torn sticker so no one will copy/hack the mobile phones..
lolx~
A lot of work also la...
so many customer...
plus,u need nails to do this bloody sht work..
if not,ur finger will suffer like hell
(thank god I let my nails long)
I think sooner or later my nails will be broken by me...
better buy some nail cream since going to hatyai tomorrow...
haha ;)

But it is also quite fun that
I never work in this kind of places...
and of course it is a good experience for me that I learn perdagangan...
should need some experience about pemborong..
which is super cool!
lolx~
haha XD

sometimes things just have to let go...

I am officially single now!
I let go of my love life which lasted me a year and 3 months ++
why?
the answer is simple..
I have 2 main reason~
1st=family matters...
2nd=my feelings towards him faded...
am I just plainly cruel or what?
haha XD

Why I suddenly lose feeling for him?
hmm...good question...
If not mistaken it was 30th of November...
I think I was just bored and went to the crap library
which f***ed...it was being used as a pameran buku crap stuff la..
lolx~
so means go to sk8 shop and study la..
but okay la...at least ikmal=the deaf guy
was quiet..he did not kacau me when I study...
so quite fine also la...
okay,I message him..told him I was here...
see if he could join me for lunch or what..
mana tahu,oso x jadi la...
excuse?
work...too much work...
That was went my feelings towards him faded...
lolx~
lame right?
but I think he took me for granted in some ways like when he can't meet me or what...not that I did not want to accept the fact that he is busy...
just that,I really envy him...
For being so close with his own family...
while I could not do the same thing...
beside...
He has a responsibility in the family...
so of course he sometimes had to sacrifice me for family...
haiz~
whatever la...

I think I got fed up already..
for so a long journey with him together...
yet I feel so bored about it..
nothing refreshing...
and of course it sucks when you think like that...
lolx~
beside,I think it is also time that me finding someone who is there for me...
all the time...take time to listen to all my crap...
really really loves me...
and also give me my own space...
I hope I found the perfect match though..
haha XD
(giving hints to those who knows or realize it...)

but seriously weird...
even though I ask for the break up crap thing...
I cried around 1~2 hours plus...
Of course feeling sad la...
have to let it go...
but really,
sometimes letting go is better then to stick to someone...

I let him go because I did have feelings for him... I let him go because I think it was a right thing to do... I let him go because I did not want him to wasted time on me! I let him go because I really hoped he find a better girl then me... I let him go because I think I fell in love with other people...

lolx~
super lame right?
haha XD
no matter what..
I never regret being a couple with him...
It was 1 of the memorable thing for me ....
Able myself to couple with a malay guy...(plus older then me a lot)
was a fun experience...
GOOD LUCK in your life!
I wish you all the best jamal!
I will miss you too!
muacks!
sayonara~

woohoo~ merdeka!

After off so long of hard work..(or maybe not)
finally the battle with paper is over..
and I still can't express myself with this feelings..
It is just unbelievable!
I dunno why but I can't help myself laughing about it...
so this is what called after form 5 life?

Everyone in the classroom was waiting impatiently...
looking at the clock and pray like hell that exam is over soon...
I am also a part of it...
trying to make some weird faces to the friends and keep repeating saying...

"MERDEKA!MERDEKA!MERDEKA!"

and of course,some of them were kinda annoyed by me..
haha XD
sorry ya!
when the time comes...
rrrriiiiinnnngggggggg!!!!!!!
all of us say

"Terima kasih cikgu!'

and just ran out from the class...
while me..
I ran to the middle of the dataran and start to shout MERDEKA! (only once)
then ran to my place take my text book,ran up again then lolx~
I was kinda tired though..
haha XD
(I haven't run for ages..what to do..)

but...
some cranky stuff happen..
2 things actually...that makes me kinda embaressed with it..
haiz~
the 1st want was before going back to the classroom for the next paper..
I was talking with my friends at the canteen...
putting my hand 1 side on the table...
and OMG!
suddenly,my right shoulder of the baju kurung start to koyak...
walao!
I really can't imagine that happen to me..
and this baju kurung was my sister want..
so did not expected it la..
lame~
the 2nd thing was...
I kurang 1 buku text to return...
I think it was add math if not mistaken..
so kantoi with the pengetua la..
and great...
my mum face the last day of school in my life while get emberass in the same time..
haha XD
how cool is that?
lolx~

went to friends house my bff= chee mei wei
and ate at her house..
when to dye our hair..
haha XD
I know that my hair now is like what?
coco?why it was suppose to be dirty blonde..
lolx~
but still okay la..
not so bad yet..
then suppose to go super..
x jadi oso..
so ask her to fetch me to kek sayang then my other friend fetch me home.
haha XD
thanks pal!

Then at night went out with this pal...
suppose to go simpang kuala lepak..
lolx~
no parking..
haiz~
so teman this pal to meet his old friend at sentosa..
meet some primary school junior working there...
haha XD
in the end,end up eating waffles as my dinner..
lolx~
lame right?
but nevermind la...
that person belanja..
so okay lagi..
hehe ;p
when I reach home...
too boring..too early to get out of the car..
so like...
lepak inside the car lo..
talk crap..
haha XD
after 10 minutes...
get out..and head home..
haha XD
what a weird experience for a day..

btw,my sis is back!
yeah!
so nice!
haha XD
but I won't be helping her clean the house..
haha XD

fcked the akaun teacher!

FCKED THAT AKAUN TEACHER!!!
Who never bother to teach us properly!!!
Never bloody to teach us all the chapters!!!
Who always teach us in a bloody fcking moody mood!!!
Which treat the students as another way to release his bloody tension!!!
Sometimes don't bother to go in to class!!!
FCKED U!!!!

And yet like that can get fcking guru cemerlang...
my ass!!!!
Thanks to that idiot!
the part he never teach came out!
what the FCKED??
walao!
And stop fcking lying to my mother saying that you have teach in class!
You asshole!
You only teach some bloody theory and you never teach us how to do also!
Don't lie la...
and I though u islam people say that

"Dosa kalau bertipu,allah akan marah"

Then stop lying to us la!
We the students know the truth...
not you..
Who aren't give a shit to other people!
Well,who cares now?
fcked off man!