used to be

U came into my life just like a whirl wind
Spin so fast till everything was destroyed..
yet leave it so quietly and subtlely that no one would realize u were there before..
U...were one of those kind of thing...
I thought I knew u..
U make me feel like I've known u 4 years..
Guess I was wrong again...

Frankly speaking..
I've fallen for ur traps where he was busy...
U make me feel wanted...needed...
U gave me things that he would never afford
U keep me company when I was all alone without him being around..
U gave me some excitment in my life that I wouldn't enjoy it with him...
just to get into my toot.....

I did love u before..
I wanted to be serious with u..
But ur actions make me doubt u again..
My friends keep telling me that u were a player..
I guess they were right when I caught u red handed..
U were a typical kind of player..
Which I'm not used to be pick by a player..
I'm not pretty nor rich..
I'm just a normal tomboy trying to live my life!

Yet..U still pick me as ur victim...
Maybe to u I was unique..
I'm way to different then other girls..
I'm not as boyish as some girls where they act like a guy..
I'm not as feminine as other girls where they are way to girly..
I'm that kind of girl who is just nicely stuck in the middle..
not too girly nor too boyish..
Or is it my looks that make u think I'm exotic??
where my eyes are as small as Japanese people look like..
With that fair skin u couldn't even make urself patience with the temptation..
oh right..
I could speak malay better then most chinese that u've meet before..
No wonder u keep telling people about me..
Now I get it..

U knew that I've someone in mind..
U knew that I'm still in love with him..
Yet, U tried ur best too pull my attention towards u..
At 1st u succeed it..
but few months later..U were getting boring..
U showed ur true colours to me..

If u were to ask me now did I ever love u before..
my answer is yes..I did...And I will always do that.`
whether it is a status of a 'lil brother' 'best friends' 'scandal' etc..
I will always remember that U were once a part of me..
Just remember that I never hate u what u've done to me..
Yet I thank u for doing that..
Course u make me see a lot of things in a different view of life..

Thank u so much for all the guidance u gave me..
even though it was short..like 6-8 months...
yet a memorable and bitter sweet journey I had with u..
our road together has ended here..
may god bless u whenever u go..
If we ever meet again..
I hope that the scars u gave me have heal
and I will be a brand new person again..
And maybe..
To accept u back in my life as a friend..