No title to write this time..
Dunno what kind of title is suitable to describe what I'm trying to write now..

U came into my life after I just had my sweet freedom..
I never could imagine myself to be so close to U
even with so much drama going on with my life..
U are just yourself...
relax...chill...happy go lucky etc...
In the end, something miracle happen..
I was quite happy etc...
but during the progress of knowing each other..
there is a lot of obstacle as well..
that make us know each other better...
but with some scratches as well..

I could still remember that U say that the 1st stage was
always sweet...curious...so the smsing...phone calling would non-stop..
but soon after the 1st stage of knowing each other have pass..
U got bored of it..
I remember 1 of our conversation that U r kinda bored of it...
I wonder u either say that u r bored of me because I keep on disappointing U...
or because my attitude is easier to grab?
while not like U..
no matter how straight forward U are..
U are still like a puzzle to me..
I still can't figure U out from my mind..
U r really not that kind of person who I could figure out..

Since U knew 1 of my dirty little secret..
I know that it is either gonna make it or break it..
at 1st U accept it..
the last conversation we had...
U make it very clear to me a lot of things..
I dunno whether I feel disappointed or not..
but, the more I think about it..
the more I feel guilty about it..
U r really a rare kind..
I couldn't ask for more..
yet.. I feel like I don't deserve U..

I'm having inner conflict like I always had..
I dunno what is running through my mind besides exam..
I wonder do U even remember those words U said to me...
but I guess..
it doesn't matter now..
because everything seems impossible now..

busy month

It's been awhile I've touch my blog..
I know I've been busy preparing the 'WAR'
and also going through exams like I've been going through for
UPSR, PMR, SPM..and now the latest STPM...
its really damn different from any of those public exam I've taken before..
this time..exams like shit..
freaking harder than trial..
I thought trial is easier..
but real stpm..cannot be spot nor what..
its just unpredictable..
lolx~

I know..I know..
my result sucks...
because I've never really work hard in my studies before..
is it because I'm lazy?
maybe..maybe I don't really have the interest in studying academic though..
haha XD

neway...
2more papers to goooooooooo.........
with the gap so long..
the waiting is killing me...
argh!!!!!!!!
I can't wait for my sweet freedom..
yeah!!!
holiday!
wait for me!
I've made a list what I would love to do though..
haha XD